Ugh.

"You can all just kiss off into the air, behind my back I can see them stare, They'll hurt me bad, but I wont mind, they'll hurt me bad, they do it all the time."

This quote pretty much sums up my life in a nutshell. I'm so fucking good to people. But time and time again everyone hurts me. Yet I keep being good. Don't be starting fights with others. I fix shit when I can. I'm that shoulder to cry on. Yet time and time again in the end I'm left to myself. I treat all with some amount of respect but I myself am not respected.

Squirrel. I guess thats what they sum my life as. Peanut brain and all. Thats what all of you refer to me. I try to show my intellectual side to all you and then what? He's just a squirrel. Fuck you. I hate you.

I hate that as I walk around with a smile on my face theres always one to tear me down. To crush me. How is it that I'm there for you all when you need help and you repay me by making me feel like what I tried so hard to keep you feeling. Fuck you. I hate you.


I hate you. I hate all of you who judge me. Fuck you. Who are you to judge. You don't know me. None of you do.

But hey thank you. Thank you for making me feel this way. Thank you for once again reinforcing the fact of what I truly am. A nuisance. Just a bother. Something to poke fun of at. Just to boost your own ego. Every single one of you. No exceptions. I've become so superficial just to please all of you.

I guess a life of silence sounds much nicer than the noise I bring.



"This is R-E-A-L-I-T-Y."